Letting go....

When I finally let go and
I give up on being in control
It is then and only then
That peace comes.

When I finally let go of
The worry and stress of
Trying to do it all on my own
It is then and only then
That I open the door for blessings.

When I finally let go of
Expectations and preconceived notions
And remember that
I am only human
It is then and only then
That I can give myself grace.

When I finally let go of
my ideas
my plans
my desires
my wants
my feelings......


I am learning to let go.  Not just in a physical sense, but in an emotional sense too.  I have had a LOT of doubts, fears, and uncertainty this year.  Nothing specific, just a lot of little things that have crept in and gotten to me.  I have had a lot of emotional stuff that has bothered me this year.  Honestly, spending 8 months of the year dealing with surgeries, infections, medications, more surgery, more infections, more medications and 7 months of wound care along with already having chronic pain issues, had left me drained - physically and emotionally.  Maybe even a little tired spiritually.

I am still learning to let go of my Plan A.  I am also learning that by letting go, I open myself up to receive blessings.  I open myself up to be cared for and cared about.  I open my kids up to learn about giving AND receiving.  I open us up to the opportunity to learn about humility.  We open ourselves to be loved and to accept love with soft hearts and sweet spirits.

We are learning that sometimes by being broken, we are really being healed.  We learn that insecurities can actually teach us how to be strong.  We learn that loneliness doesn't mean that we are alone.  We learn to love harder.

We learn that God will always provide - in ways we never dreamed.

And He is providing......In ways we never dreamed!