Hurting hearts

Busy thoughts this afternoon, so I am sharing a rather ramble-y post.....

Sitting here thinking about the last 9 months of my life....the now 4 months since heaven gained my Sweet Love.  The tests. The trials. The fears. The prayers. The feelings. The heartache.  The heartbreak.  Thinking about what I've lost.  What I've gained.  What I've learned.  What I'm learning.  The fact that I still have so much to learn.  I've been thinking of the blessings even through the tragedies.   The rainbows from the rain.  There are still bad/hard days, but there are days of merciful grace when I am reassured that I (and my sweet Kyle) WILL be ok.  Mark expects no less!!  My heart breaks that my son will experience his first Father's Day, with his daddy in heaven, so far from home, but at the same time there is peace that his daddy is watching over him and so proud of him. 

While all of these thoughts, feelings, and emotions go through my head and heart today, I find myself SO heavy hearted for other hurting people today. The tears I have shed this afternoon are because despite everything I have been through, the hurt doesn't stop just because I feel like a part of my life did.  The hurts continue all around us....all around me.  People continue to suffer, hurt, and grieve.  Tears continue to be shed.  Hearts continue to break.    

I pray, so earnestly, that I don't wallow in self pity, but that I use just ONE thing I've learned, or am learning, to be a blessing to someone else who is hurting.  I want to be a blessing despite my pain. 

If more people stopped and said a prayer FOR hurting souls instead of talking ABOUT them....... What a change that could elicit in not just their lives, but our own.  

Please God, let me a lifter of hurting souls and an encouragement to the down hearted.  Let me be be quietly prayerful when words aren't needed, but give me wisdom when I speak.   Help me close my ears to gossiping and rumors and live Psalms 19:14.  

Yes, it's definitely time to start blogging again!!!